Rediscovering

IMG_3547From 2015 through the end of 2016, I lost myself. I lost connections, friendships, and my Dad. I lost babies, and in that process I almost lost my wife.

So, I grew angry. And this anger permeated into every aspect of my life. It corroded my relationship with my wife and my children. I tried to ignore the way my children had began to look at me, with pity and even a little fear, not knowing if I was going to yell at them or storm off into some oasis of rage fueled seclusion.

Then, my daughter began experimenting with the idea of dating a boy. She was a highschool sophomore and he was a senior. They both are Christians, although different denominations. This denominational difference drew me in. I may have been an angry man. But my love for my daughter and my natural desire to protect her was more than I could resist. So, I dove into studying his faith, and how it might effect my daughter.

Since then, I have slowly began the process of coming back to God. To cautiously approaching His throne once again, knowing that I am not worthy of His grace or forgiveness.

But, I am coming out of fear and regret and into thanksgiving and boldness. Here I am, as critical as ever before. But, trying to be what He desires of me.

His ways are not my ways. And I am very happy about that!

Forgotten God, by Francis Chan, is acting as the icing on my Rediscovery Cake. I am back, and I am His.

FireWater

FireWater

Life is as simple, or as difficult, as our perception allows. Politics, food, relaxation, recreation, and even love can be either fulfilling or destructive in our lives. Like the mystique of the fire, or like the soothingly smooth surfaced lake, enjoy the beauty in it all.